Work has been fine the last week, but general mood has been pretty flat. Squash is lacklustre. I think the dating frustration absolutely creeps in. You get a couple of dates with someone like Connie, then she bails and you feel sad.

If you can’t handle rejection without it effecting your mood too much you shouldn’t really be dating. It’s an inevitable part. So get better and controlling my own mind. Meditation, no Simping, no Bitching, and do the washing up for god’s sake haha.

Physical Stuff

I’m a little concerned I’ve reached my physical peak, and now I’ll decline. It might be slow, but it’ll be down not up. You need to come to peace with that, because there’s no time to give up. You can still ease that curve a lot.

Feel like number of steps, body composition, power (explosiveness etc.) need more effort now. Gotta get a solid routine for gym, eating, sprints and stretching/mobility. How to drive like I used to. Remember when I started squash and was so enamoured I’d get up at 4:30am to go to the beach and run up sand hills? Put that level of effort back in and see where you get.

Dating

I get a bit divided between not letting it get me down, not letting my self esteem get all wrapped up in it, and also acknowledging some actual change I could make in myself to be more attractive.

What might you try?

• Better conversationalist
• Better dancer
• Go out to other events like exercise, sport and art related?
• Read more broadly